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[May 12th,2006
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[May 10th,2006
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Well, I have had the shittest couple days. Ever. Like saturday and sunday need to be taken from my mind, and monday sucked ass. Tuesday got better and better. By the end of the day, I was like BAM, pretty sweet. I'm telling you, little tiny things make my freaking day. Like I was on cloud nine simply because when I walked outta TC Brianna and Jeff were there. Like how retarded is that, that something so little made me so happy. I'm telling you, little tiny things make me throughtheroof happy.
Without a couple people, I would have died in the past week. Like Nick. Nick was always there telling me exactly what I needed to hear. Nicole was always there to listen to me online, and tell me little random things, like my horoscope or her little snipts of advice. She always made my laugh. And Ali. Good lord what would I have done without her. She would listen to me cry and call her at odd hours, and helped me analyze every little thing. She really gets my little random every two word rants. She taught me how to breathe and was the best person in the world. She helped me stay out of my downward circle. She was the person I could talk to whenever and where ever about whatever. She kept me sane since last monday. I think I would have cracked and just broken down into little tiny unsavable pieces.
I am going to mass tomorrow morning with Jenna. I wish I knew what to say to make her feel better, I hate to see her upset. I just want to make her happy and take away all her pain. Like if I could bargin with the devil, and be like take her pain from her and give it to me, I would. I wouldn't think twice.
I had a funny bus experience. I saw Nick and Matt Rondeau. And some random kid named gerald who is apperently my new friend. Kinda like that random junior that says 'hey baby' whenever he sees me. Well, whatever floats their boat. Its kidna cool, talking to random people. Makes life exciting. And my life is pretty damn effing perfect as of late.
And...Did I mention...I'm second in discus! I am right behind lauren who is only 9 feet ahead of me. Dude, all that emotion built up from the weekend from hell came in handy. I threw 60 feet 10.5 inches. I truly am the freshman protidgy. I am actually good at something, I was so excited.
So yea, thats it for now. Enjoy.
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[May 6th,2006
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I
Hate
Being
SICK.
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[May 5th,2006
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4:50pm] |
Pretty damn good day.
Although knowing you were being used wasn't the best feeling in the world.
But whatev, I honestly don't care.
It's over and done.
I love my friends.
With a burning firey passion.
And my bus people, they are my life.
They take care of me.
So..BAM.
And yes, I say BAM alot.
Deal.
I reazlied other peoples tiredness rubs off on me.
Pretty not exciting actually.
I love my track people.
MONICA WINS.
So does LORRI.
But we are gonna have sexi sexi abs.
Because, YA KNOW, we totally work out.
Water bubblers are fun..
Guinea Pig say holla!
HOLLA!
You totally wish you were us.
Anyway, chorus thing til like FOREVER.
Not gonna be fun.
This morning: mad freaking TC rush. Me lorri jenna jeff and sam are in the same TC, that is gonna make for some good times.
Geometry: Dan is my buddy. He is the KING. THERE IS NO THM I GOT RID OF IT. MEET MY FRIEND ANGLE A. LOOK HARDER DAMN IT! HAPPY CROSS THE BOARDER DAY. Independacize yourself!! <-- good stuff.
World History: Did my spanish homework. Yea, watched some presentations
Free: Me and Jeff helped mr. cooney bring risers and stuff down stairs to the gym for tomorrow, that elevator could chop your head off. seriously. I was like RIIIGHT. Ok. Then we got to leave early because there was nothing for us to do, so we sat in the locker room..and who walks in...NICK! So he was talking to us. lol.
Religion: BORING. Sleepy. Blahhh.
Spanish: WHITE CHOCOLATE DESIGNS BITCH. Wow. Me and Bre are crazy. She is the desinger, and the fabric is gonna pop outta the seams if it wants to, and I am the manager and I am sorry she has no comment at this tiem. <-- great stuff. "coloring relaxes me". i love how ms.berretto is like DONT DO YOUR HOMEWORK NOW ILL KNOW. well i finished it and she didnt know, and then she never checked it. then there were technical difficulties with the TV and laptop and stuff so we got to spend like 40 minutes of class just talking. gotta love it.
Bio: good stuff. quiz was easy. like HARDCORE easy. me and marissa are funny. PENS! mr.lavallee was scared. me and lorri have some good times.
After school: Nothing really. Couldn't find lorri. Which means I have no dress. But whatev. Again, don't care. So yea. Then track. Already talked about that.
Now: Going to shower and watch mindless television which I havn't done it like a week. I need to fill my head with random stuff that I don't need.
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ps - new icons. =] outspokenicons is my favorite.
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[May 4th,2006
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Better day.
Not amazing,
made some progress though.
Track was tiring.
I think pulled a muscle in my ear
Cuz I am just that HARDCORE.
I am on the phone with Laura, she is cool.
She can multi task...
BAMM.
I am now bored.
So yea
Chorus tonight.
So not [ NOT ] excited.
I love my throwers.
Like Kelly, Monica, and Alicia.
Me and lorri got slushies
And walked through woonsocket
And talked about some random stuff
ONEX.
Enough said.
Anyway.
Choir thing tonight.
Oh I'm so excited.
[ NOT ].
As you can tell.
I am still very disorganized in my thought process.
I am now going to go shower.
Peace out boy scout.
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[May 3rd,2006
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5:29pm] |
Bad day.
I mean really really bad day.
I'm sick of everyone elses stories.
And opinions.
I just wish they would talk to me
The one person who I thought would
Won't.
It hurts.
But I won't let it happen again.
I won't sit back and watch something that means so much
Just drift away again.
All I want to do is sit and talk to Nicole.
(yes, nicole, YOU)
Track was useless.
CCD is gonna suck.
Yea, I'm done.
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[April 29th,2006
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12:45pm] |
Semi was last night.
Best night ever.
Like ever ever.
We (Me Marissas Schuyler Jeff Jill and her date) went to coffee and cream too.
That was amazing.
Chocolate Chip Crepes.
Mhhhm.
&hearts
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[April 26th,2006
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Well, I got a A on my CCD test. Woot Woot. I felt smart lol. Granted, the whole catholic school since I was four was a major advantage. I just watched Bones and it was about a girl who got a infected bone graft and not has terminal cancer and not long to live. It was so sad.
I was gonna finish/start my spanish project, and I actually got like 9 family members with pictures, and a poster board, but not paper (or sentences), so thats for tomorrow. I'll do it once I get home from the doctors. I should be home by like 4:15, so that gives me plenty of time.
I was so hyper at CCD. And ADD. And brittany was mad at me for like a split two seconds because she finally found out that im not going to NS next year. But she cant stay mad at me. We had a survey about who was cuter out of eac pair of guys in our CCD class. I won most of the time. Heidi was the tie breaker and she was almost always on my side. John Jacob Jingle Himer Smith has alot of supporters let me tell you lol.
Me and lorri talked about womb karma. But we sorta figred that my terrible luck with guys isnt bad karma or my fault. Its the womb. Lmfao. Good stuff. We talked about hands, and how if they didn't fit so damn perfect, I would feel so much better. Stupiddamnperfectfittinghands. Lol.
I got a 46 for discus! Woot. I only need 50 to qualify for states and it was only like my first time throwing it. So imagine in me in like a couple meets. I am gonna be the QUEEN. Well not really, Lauren gets like 55.7 without even trying, and alice gets at least 48 without thinking lol. So only 4 more feet and i get to go to states! I wanna throw Java. to bad I can't go to practice tomorrow. Tear. Stupid doctors. Hope Ms.Kraus doesnt get mad.
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[April 23rd,2006
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Recap of week:
Monday: Track practice, then Julias house with all the lovers. Already told you about. Scroll down if you didn't read it.
Tuesday: At Julias until like 1. Then brought home Miranda and I got home until like 2. I watched Gilmore Girls 'til 2.
Wednesday: Doctors appointment. Grocery shopping.
Thursday:Doctors all day. Endo and Nuero. Woo. Me and my mom got lost RI Hospital/Hasbro/Womans and Infants 3 hours. Then we just walked around aimlessly and then finally got on a mini bus thing and finally got to Coro but then noo we had to go Coro west. Walking around in that thing is like running the boston marathon. Then out to lunch with my mom and then we got her hair down. Well I sat in the car and talked to Stefani on the phone.
Friday:</u> Out to breakfast with Dad, sister, and brother. Then we picked up Stef and we got dropped off at my other doctor. Then we walked across the big street. We went to see Scary Movie 4. It sucked. Like Really bad. Like terrible. Like don't go to see it. Then we went to eat some pizza at papa ginos. Then we went to K-mart *cough cough TARGET cough cough*. Then we dropped stef off and then I went home nd watched the rest of seaons 2. My parents went out and i watched cheerleader nation and talked to maegan and now she owes me like 20 bucks for my umm...services.
Saturday:I became a hermit and watched all of seaons 3
Sunday: Slept and watched more gilmore girls. Now planning my next week out. On the phone with sam, the whole nine yards.
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[April 21st,2006
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I am so entertained. No, content. Yea. I am just chilling in my PJ's in my chair drinking water and eating pizza (third take out meal today thankyouverymuch) watching cheerleading nation. I love having the house to myself..you have no idea. I realized that the only thing missing right now is the idea of that one special person. That one special person that will honestly care about me. That one special person that I make happy for just being me. I want to be in that special realtionship where you don't need to do anything special, or dress up, but its still fun to do. I want that one special relationship when you go through your normal day, and then just stop for like 2 seconds and smile. Smile just because you know there is one person out there that is thinking about you. I want that feeling that can't be explained. Its just like amazing. I want that special person that you can look foward to seeing every Monday morning, bright and early. So yea, while I sit here and stuff my face with peanut butter, I will contemplate something. Probably dream about my prince charming. And then go watch more Gilmore Girls and get way to involved in that show and be up until freaking sunday. Well not really, more like really really early tomorrow, like birdish times. Like when the third shifters are getting off, I'm going to bed.
Now on to the super hott pizza delivery guy. I mean he was a
holymoleygreatballsoffiredidithurtwhenyoufellfromheavenjawdroppingdroolworth4dollartipworthyimsogladihavntchangedouttamynormalclothesyet
kinda hottie.
Did I mention I have a new band obsession?!?!?! yes well I do.
Name: Dropping Daylight
Lead singer/Pianist: pretty cute
Drummer: pretty hott
Bassist: a-kjsdfyiuhekbnvsdjkfr-freaking gorgeous
Gutiarist: ugh. Well, no band is perfect
They rock. I love them. End of story. They also speak in third person which Katie finds very sexy.
&hearts
Well, as you can tell, I am a tad bit hyper right now. Peace out lovers.
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[April 18th,2006
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Those, livejournalers, are my loverly drama nerds, without audrey and miranda of course, they are just way to hott for you to see.
Wow. I havn't updated in so long I don't remeber half of whats gone on. So yea. Julias house. Most amazing thing ever. Ever ever ever. Way to much went on there for me to record. All you gotta know is apples to apples, chocolate syurp, orange straws, and morning after pizza. Good stuff. Oh yea, and some hardcore bubbly, and apparently, I look like a really good alchoholic lol. Thats me, just sipping from my plastic cup like I'm at a frat party =p.
My computers is doing weird things. You have no idea. Like I was talking to nick on one sn, and then all of a sudden im still talking to nick but it says Stefani where it should say Nick so i was freaking out. I'm still sorta confused but whatever. Ok it really is nick. Alright, its like instead of throwing their voice, its throwing their typing. creeeepy stuff. must be a full moon. or not.
High jump = &hearts &hearts &hearts &hearts but ms.kraus has me down for jav and disques. i cant do jav, it hurts my shoulder like a bitch, but i like disques, but I wicked wanna do high jump. urggg.
I painted my nails. And decided that I'm getting a pedicure OH DAMN I LOVE THIS SONG sorry, its just a really good song. Well the beginning is just amazing and the chorus, its wings of a butterfly by HIM if you were wondering.
I am sooped for house tonight. Secerts and threats and nonmedical stuff. Woot, juciy gossip.
Anyhoo, Rod Steward on American Idol. Peace out Lovers <33
ps - dont ask about the title. =]
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[April 17th,2006
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I'll update soon I promise. My mom has been home, and hates when I sit on the computer and 'tap to loud'. I'll update tomorrow when I get home from Julias.
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[April 9th,2006
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Play last night was so much fun. Julia has a bruise named Iowa and i broke out in a stress rash but other then that it was awesome. my little note cards = life. lol
I had a note card with all the scenes and my enternces/exits tucked into my shirt. its so funny cuz this one time someone askedme what was next and i pulled it out and dave was looking at me lik 'wtf' and i was like 'yes I just pulled this outta my shirt, and no I dont care' and hes like 'well you answered all my questions' good stuff.
i have the best blackmail ever. especially on jeff. =p
everyone was saying how me and kevin were made for each other. They were all like they are so perfect for each other, the perfect onstage couple! they act so well off each other. blah blah blah.
We had a fire drill it was so funny. middle of jeffs line in the first scene, the music stops and the lights go out and on and we hear the fire alram. and mr.cooney is like go outside! so me chels julia and jeff are singing choral caberat stuff and then we start doing the hokey pokey. and this lady was taking pictures and we think well be in the paper cuz she was from the valley breeze or the woonsocket call or something. then we went inside andstarted again. it was awesome. the play was great. woot. us pickalittle ladies some how pulled the song outta our ass lol.
I got mad at jeff, and then when he actually cared it made it really hard to tell him why I was mad. I hate that. Ya know, you get mad and it makes it so much easier and then they actually care and its like arg. So i told him and everything and it was ok. but then isnt its easy to get mad when they dont fix the problem right? yea well, he actually did something about it. Now i really cant get mad at him like ever again. and he knows the stressed out stance. so hes all set now lol.
I am gonna cry my eyes out tonight, cuz its my last play with these people. I have been with them for 2 some for 3 years. its crazy. I have formed a family with the core group of them. I love them to death.
I have to go finish my religion project now. And then do my hair. and then off to drama. woot. Music man tiwce tonight.But first...PICTURES!
( Clicky the Linky )
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[April 8th,2006
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4:35pm] |
Its been an interesting week to say the least. Seems like monday was a year ago. I am gonna have trouble with this week. Let me pull out a calander. Ahh well, I was home sick monday. I was so sick I couldn't stand up and so mentally exhausted I couldn't think. I had missed drama and mr.cooney didnt really notice haha. Rachel read my part. Tuesday, tuesday, tuesday, AH YES, tuesday. The end began. A couple people will get that, if you don't get that, it doesn't concern you so whatever. Then Wed. well nothing to interesting happened except I had a crappy day. Since nothing happened on tuesday, wed was ruined. Again, A couple people will get that, if you don't get that, it doesn't concern you so whatever. but CCD was so awesome. Like you have no idea. Brittany freaked out because my eyes were bloodshot and i didnt think it was relevant but later on we find i have an eye infection woo hoo. anyway, We found out that evan got a girlfriend. so sad so sad. he was our eye candy. lmfao. then we found out our CCD test is next week. and we are all like 'oh damn, were gonna flunk'. then kayla, aaah kayla, she is amazing. she gave me a collage. of stuff. like pictures. and then ones with quotes. Jeff Julia and Ali are the only ones who saw them. good stuff, good stuff. then thursday. the big day. Justin knows to much about to little. he is so small no one notices him, and he hears stuff and then comes and tells me. its so funny. but yea jeff called me at like 9:10 and i was like WOAH phonecall. number 1, jeff hates the phone, he barely uses it. and i am not even allowed to like look at the phone after nine and i was allowed on the phone till 10. good stuff good stuff. we have the most random converstaions, like our track team. [[ HoHohotties for life bitches. ]] Then friday. Royal day of hell. since i almost killedmy eyes on thursday i couldnt wear contacts cuz of my wonderful eye infection so instead i wore glass which sucked. then i got my period in the middle of world history and i wanted to DIE. and did i mention that i hate eye drops and have i use them every 2 hours? yea. great day. then the fricking dress rehursal. some stuff went down. and i got really mad. and didnt go to the dance. instead i sat at home at some hardcore pizza and chocolate cake, watched a movie with some shirtless will smith and then watched love and basketball. good stuff. then got up at like 5 and then was cheering for the rest of the day. 2nd place bitches lol. i found out that some of my old cheering 'buddies' cheer for baystate junior novice. PHEFT. lol tryouts for that are in may.
ok, well now for the vauge part of the entry that only a few people will get. i am very irrational and insecure when it comes to best friends. like you have no idea. like i try and trust them, but i hear wind of anything else and i FREAK. im learning to step back and be rational though. and think of all the things i know that other people dont. or all the things ive done that other people havent. or all the things theyve said. its crazy stuff.
last night i read an online text book about social phycology. im crazy.
anyhoo. gotta get read for the music man tonight. i am mucho excited. yet mucho nervous.
phew. im done now lol.
Did I mention that oldies music has the best love songs?
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[April 3rd,2006
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12:00pm] |
I am home sick today. Echk I feel gross. Jeff's mom called this morning. Something about Jeff buying semi tickets and needing to catch up with me. She called at like 7 am and left a message. I think it has something to do with the tabel seating or whatever. I'll be umm, excited to see what he comes up with. So I am bringing in my 45 bucks tomorrow, either to buy my ticket, or pay Jeff. Either way, someone is taking that money.
I'm talking to Nick because hes in comptuer class. Naughty, Naughty, someone isn't paying attention in class. He is sorta sick too, but he said he went to school anyhoo. He is pretty cool. Its such a small world though. I sorta met him at a party like last october, and then he was on my bus one day to shadow andrea, and then I saw him at CCD, and I was like WOAH, hey I know you don't I. And then we started talking online yesterday and I found out he was in my mom's CCD class. Ahh, small world eh? He is really easy to talk to. Which may sound weird since we've never really talked in person, but whatever. He is probably leaving NS to go to Beacon next year, and I'm leaving Mount to go to NS. So I'm not the only crazy person who changes school in their sophmore year. He said I'll probably like it.
I can't believe its only 12:08. It feels like it should be 3 o'clock. I can't believe I am gonna miss drama today, Mr.Cooney is gonna eat me alive. Kevin promised me he'd do something horrible, if a certain someone read my part. And then I told him I'd beat them to deat with my script, which I should go read since I don't know my lines.
I think I am gonna go eat some more Ice Cream now. Gosh Darn sickness. I wanna go outside. It is so pretty out there. *tear*
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[March 28th,2006
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6:01pm] |
Today sucked ass. You know those days when you get up and you think 'oh this will be a good day' and it turns out to be the crappiest day EVER. Well I made it to the 2nd bus, and my day already was declining, I get downstairs at like 7:40 and my day offically dies. Murdered. Killed. Dead. But anyway..
I got my costume today. The lady was like 'They are all picked over. You should have come earlier' She said it like 15 damn times. I almost smacker her. I was like WOMAN SHUT UP.
I am so sick of being involved of cross-school problems. get over it people GOD.
Why do the sluts always get the guys?
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[March 26th,2006
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I had a great weekend. Lots of stuff to talk about. But my mom doesn't want me on the comptuer much longer. So I'll probably do it tomorrow when I get home from school.
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[March 25th,2006
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10:16pm] |
Nicks still here. Hes cool. Like Woah. Yea.
[ Insert emotion here ]
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[March 25th,2006
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6:06am] |
Have you ever felt like you just weren't good enough to be someones number one?
Or that just weren't good enough to make that one special person care?
Have you ever felt that you don't ask for much but still get let down?
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